This is why such a soul experiences excessive sadness and despair soon as signs of its own lack of integrity show up, with the consequence that it immediately feels unacceptable to God.  That’s why a sick soul is always hiding the truth from itself, the mechanism for which is endless self-justification. And why the correction of such a soul is always taken as rejection.
On Helping Souls That Are Being Tried
Do not lose your serenity on account of those who are being tried.  Pray for them; offer the sufferings of My Passion and some acts of self-denial, some self-imposed sufferings for them.”
Jesus to Sister Mary of the Holy Trinity
When souls are being tried, what they need from you is deeper love of Me—so that, through you, I may give them the grace they need.  So you see, you need your serenity even more at such times.  Do not try to buy peace for souls by losing your own!  Offer up your act of self-denial at such times, so that the soul who is suffering may get the grace to accept in joy what she cannot change—through your free offering of love.  You will see more and more how you are all instruments in the communication of My Love, for one another as for yourselves.  The more you will understand that, the more you will love one another.
On Feeling Unloved
Only the realization that I love you now, I, Jesus, who know all your misery, all your sins, the failure of your whole life, only the knowledge that I Who know how underserving you are of anyone‘s love, yet love you nevertheless with the Love of God Himself, can take away the pain and anxiety of feeling unloved by so many persons, and not undeservedly.
 The Age of St. Bernard’s is not like Ours.
St. Bernard, commenting on the Canticle (Song of Songs)

"Or perhaps, drawn away and seduced by his own concupiscence, he is still being dangerously tempted. Such a soul as this does not need a Bridegroom but a Physician, and for this reason receives, not kisses or caresses, surely, but only remedies for wounds in oil and ointments."

Yes, Bernard, in your time this was true — for the time had not yet come to force men willy-nilly from the highways and byways to the wedding feast. Men were still strong and able to overcome concupiscence with a help of the Physician less than the Kiss of His Mouth, less than the embrace of His intimacy. But now we are as children, impatient as we are weak, and needing, therefore, to be fondled and kissed by the Mother and her spouse, by Mary and Jesus.  0 Bernard, those of your age, who could help yourselves, needed the Physician only to supply the ointments of which you speak. But we need the Kiss of this Bridegroom who condescends to the weakness of little ones, like this little one who is too weak to help himself and therefore cries out:
"Let him kiss me with the kiss of his mouth, for thy breasts are better than wine.  For my justification now is not that I am healed by the ointments of the Physician, but that I am in the arms of His Mother, that it is her purity that makes me worthy of His embrace, not my virtue."
If Something Is Painful
It seems I always assume that if something is painful, it is evil and to be avoided. Then, when I am suffering, I begin to think, and I do not rest until I have discovered some truth which I hope will remove the pain. But I do not think I do this only because I want to avoid suffering: it is rather that I look upon suffering as a sign that I am wrong somehow, that God is displeased with me, and therefore something in me must be changed.

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-Eighteenth Posting-

A Servant's Song
The Journey of a Soul through Life's Thickets 

Jesus, love me, because only Your Love can make me worthy of Your Love

Earlier Lenten Postings  
Preface:  Meaning and Purpose of the Stations
The whole meaning and purpose of the Stations of the Cross is that you may first prepare to die to yourself, in Jesus, and then die with Him so that, dead to yourself in Him, you may receive everything from the Father. This is the meaning and purpose of your whole life, the perfect preparation for your final death, and for your eternal life in heaven.
Stations 1-2 - Jesus is Condemned; Receives His Cross
Stations 3-4  - Jesus' First Fall; Meets His Mother


Genuflect, saying:  "We adore, Thee, O Christ, and we bless Thee because by Thy Holy Cross Thou hast redeemed the world."  Then kneel.)
"Yes, Simon is the living symbol of yourself.  To Me, as you kneel beneath this image, you are Simon helping Me to carry My Cross. That is exactly how I saw you at that moment of My Passion.  Unite yourself with Me across the centuries, therefore, as we carry Our Cross together. Do you understand what is happening here?  As you are helping Me to carry My Cross, I am carrying all of yours. That is why I need your help—because you cannot carry your cross alone.
"Do you understand what it means to carry your cross?  Let Me teach you a little. Think!  Ask yourself:  what was it that crucified Me? It was not the wood of the Cross, and the nails. They were only the instruments of My Crucifixion.  Neither was it the men who nailed Me to the Cross.  They, too, were only instruments, human instruments.  No!  I was crucified by sin, the sins of the whole world, from the beginning, I Who am without sin!  And, therefore, as you carry your cross, you are crucified with Me, by your sins!  That is your part.  But how do you carry the burden of your sins?  By uniting yourself with Me in the Spirit of My Truth, with Me Who am Truth, as Simon is here united with Me, by understanding in Me what you are in yourself, by understanding not merely your sinful acts, but the roots of your sins, your enslavement to sin, your love of evil—see how spontaneously you are attracted to it!—your love of lies, your hatred of the Truth, your lust to rejoice in yourself, your envy of My Goodness.
“That is what it is to carry your cross with Me, to see what you are in yourself—and then to love Me.  You pick up your cross when you face what you are in yourself; you follow Me when you love Me in the knowledge of what you are without Me, the Truth, and in the Truth you see what you are outside of the Truth.  When you carry your cross you are being freed from all the lies that confirm you in evil, the lies that close your heart to My Goodness.  When you carry your cross, you are with Me in our Mother, and you know the Truth.  Do you see the order of My Wisdom?  It is after I meet My Mother, after you are with Me in Our Mother, that you help Me carry My Cross. That is to teach you that it is with Me in Mary that you are transformed into Me by the Spirit of Truth. Then you help Me carry the Cross, then you begin to die to your own death."
(And now say Our Father, Hail Mary, Glory Be to the Father, O Jesus, forgive us our sins, etc.  As you rise to walk to the next Station, say:  "Jesus, Mary, I love you!  Save souls!" three times, to the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.)
(Genuflect, saying:  "We adore, Thee, O Christ, and we bless Thee because by Thy Holy Cross Thou hast redeemed the world."  Then kneel.)
“Now that you have been carrying My Cross with Me a little, what has happened?  Now you are My Veronica.  That is how I saw you in her, just as you are now, kneeling before My Image, desiring to comfort Me.  And now contemplate the mystery of this loving interchange; you compassionate Me, you seek to console Me.  And I, in loving gratitude for your act of sympathy, what do I do?  I give you My Image!  My face on Veronica's veil is only a symbol.  You are My Veronica, consoling Me—and through your consolation I am able to give you—Myself!  You have become My Living Likeness; that is My consolation—to be able to give you Myself—through your love.”
(And now say Our Father, Hail Mary, Glory Be to the Father, O Jesus, forgive us our sins, etc.  As you rise to walk to the next Station, say:  "Jesus, Mary, I love you!  Save souls!" three times, to the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.)
(Genuflect, saying:  "We adore, Thee, O Christ, and we bless Thee because by Thy Holy Cross Thou hast redeemed the world."  Then kneel.)
“Can you understand how I see you now?  I have given you Myself, My Likeness, and now it is you who falls as I fall.  But because you are one with Me now, you can see the truth, you can see yourself as you fall.  You can see your weaknesses because you are in the Truth.  You no longer need to justify your sins and your weaknesses in your blindness.  You no longer need to lie, because you understand My Love for you; you understand that My Love accepts you as you are.  Yes, now that you are united with Me, you can see yourself as you are—because you are in the Truth.  That is the truth that it is I Who fall in your falls, that is the truth of My Love for you.  Now we are one, and you have the strength to rise again in My Strength because you understand that I have fallen with you.  And now, as you rise in My Strength, you are permitting Me to give My Love, through you, to those who do not know Me, and who, because they do not know Me, do not know themselves.  Do you see how to know Me is to know that you are loved?  How could it be otherwise, since I am Love?  And now, knowing that you, loved by Me Who am omnipotent, you are able to face and understand the truth of your own miserable weakness—and in the very knowing of your weakness, you have the fortitude to rise in hope.”
(And now say Our Father, Hail Mary, Glory Be to the Father, O Jesus, forgive us our sins, etc.  As you rise to walk to the next Station, say:  "Jesus, Mary, I love you!  Save souls!" three times, to the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.)


Meditations by this website's author on each of the Stations of the Cross will be posted in successive weeks, in preparation for Good Friday .

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I love you with your defects. The reason I hate your defects is that they keep me from loving you more.


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First Posting - In Whom We Have Our Being
Second Posting - Look At Me
Third Posting - You Must Not Force Your Love
Fourth Posting - I nterior Silence
Fifth Posting - I Speak To Each Soul
Sixth Posting - Thinking of Dismas
Seventh Posting - Sunshine of the Soul
Eighth Posting - When You Get Sad
Ninth Posting - Something About Your Faith
Tenth Posting - Letter to a Religious Sister
Eleventh Posting Faith that sees every moment as Father's Gift
Twelfth Posting - Curing Souls That Cannot Take Correction
Thirteenth Posting - On Feeling Unwanted
Fourteenth Posting - Preparing for Lent
Fifteenth Posting ​Preface to the Stations
Sixteenth Posting - Stations 1-2
Seventeenth Posting - Stations 3-4
Longer Reflections