This is why such a soul experiences excessive sadness and despair soon as signs of its own lack of integrity show up, with the consequence that it immediately feels unacceptable to God.  That’s why a sick soul is always hiding the truth from itself, the mechanism for which is endless self-justification. And why the correction of such a soul is always taken as rejection.
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On Helping Souls That Are Being Tried
Do not lose your serenity on account of those who are being tried.  Pray for them; offer the sufferings of My Passion and some acts of self-denial, some self-imposed sufferings for them.”
Jesus to Sister Mary of the Holy Trinity
 
When souls are being tried, what they need from you is deeper love of Me—so that, through you, I may give them the grace they need.  So you see, you need your serenity even more at such times.  Do not try to buy peace for souls by losing your own!  Offer up your act of self-denial at such times, so that the soul who is suffering may get the grace to accept in joy what she cannot change—through your free offering of love.  You will see more and more how you are all instruments in the communication of My Love, for one another as for yourselves.  The more you will understand that, the more you will love one another.
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On Feeling Unloved
Only the realization that I love you now, I, Jesus, who know all your misery, all your sins, the failure of your whole life, only the knowledge that I Who know how underserving you are of anyone‘s love, yet love you nevertheless with the Love of God Himself, can take away the pain and anxiety of feeling unloved by so many persons, and not undeservedly.
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 The Age of St. Bernard’s is not like Ours.
St. Bernard, commenting on the Canticle (Song of Songs)

"Or perhaps, drawn away and seduced by his own concupiscence, he is still being dangerously tempted. Such a soul as this does not need a Bridegroom but a Physician, and for this reason receives, not kisses or caresses, surely, but only remedies for wounds in oil and ointments."

Yes, Bernard, in your time this was true — for the time had not yet come to force men willy-nilly from the highways and byways to the wedding feast. Men were still strong and able to overcome concupiscence with a help of the Physician less than the Kiss of His Mouth, less than the embrace of His intimacy. But now we are as children, impatient as we are weak, and needing, therefore, to be fondled and kissed by the Mother and her spouse, by Mary and Jesus.  0 Bernard, those of your age, who could help yourselves, needed the Physician only to supply the ointments of which you speak. But we need the Kiss of this Bridegroom who condescends to the weakness of little ones, like this little one who is too weak to help himself and therefore cries out:
"Let him kiss me with the kiss of his mouth, for thy breasts are better than wine.  For my justification now is not that I am healed by the ointments of the Physician, but that I am in the arms of His Mother, that it is her purity that makes me worthy of His embrace, not my virtue."
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If Something Is Painful
It seems I always assume that if something is painful, it is evil and to be avoided. Then, when I am suffering, I begin to think, and I do not rest until I have discovered some truth which I hope will remove the pain. But I do not think I do this only because I want to avoid suffering: it is rather that I look upon suffering as a sign that I am wrong somehow, that God is displeased with me, and therefore something in me must be changed.
    

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The Lesson Jesus has been Trying
to Teach Us   

Now you are beginning to understand the lesson I have been trying to teach you all your life. Now you are getting a little glimpse into what it means to believe in My Love for you. You can see, now, that you cannot truly believe in the Power of My Love until you are convinced that you are dead in yourself, you cannot know peace in My Heart so long as you continue to seek peace in your own heart, to convince yourself of your goodness. Do you not see it now?
All your life you have tried to get your peace by convincing yourself that I loved you because you were good. And not only were you living a lie — you were so to speak trying to get Me to cooperate with you in this lie. And all that time I was loving you in Myself, for what I had made you to be, not for what you were. All that time I knew that you truly did want Me to love you, and to love Me, but that you did not understand My Love — you could not understand that I wanted nothing from you, nothing that I Myself had not given you.  You could not understand that I, God, could only love what had come from Me — as My Father loves Me because I came out of Him — that is why in loving Myself I love the Father, because everything I am and have I have received from the Father.  And I Love you because the Father has given you to Me: I cannot love Myself without loving you, because I only love what the Father has given Me, and He has given you to Me.
 
But for a long time you could not understand that, and so I had to lead you, little by little, to see what you were in yourself. Yes, you prayed to Me for grace when you saw your weaknesses, your defects, and at times you prayed with greater intensity, after I had permitted you to fall into grave sins, sins into which those defects had led you. Yes, in a way you were beginning to see your dependence on Me. But still, without realizing it, you were asking Me for My help in order that you might take complacency, not in Me, not in the Father, but in yourself!  Did I for that reason refuse to hear your prayers? No, because I never expect more from you than what you are able to give Me with My help. And if your defect is hidden from you, therefore, I do not expect you to try to overcome what you do not know exists, however vicious it might be in itself. But then I do permit things to happen which will lead you little by little to see what you are in yourself — like the mother bird feeding its young. I break up the worm of self-knowledge into little bits in order to feed you with the realization of your own misery in the measure of your capacity to receive it. I give you My cold, the cold of Truth, in little mouthfuls. And then, for all My solicitude, it seems to you as though I were so cruel!
 
And now I want you to understand that the anxieties you still feel are little signs I give you that your death in Me is not complete, and that your understanding of Me, therefore, is not yet all pure. I want you to see that your anxieties are the enemies of My Peace, the testimony of the struggle still going on, between your ignorance and pride — and Myself, the struggle for your soul. You see, you are still the victim of the lies you have been telling yourself your whole life long. And you can see now that only My Love for you has prevented you from convincing yourself more successfully of those lies. And the
very effect of My Love, therefore, has been necessarily to leave you more and more insecure in yourself.
 
And this is the reason: On the one hand you could not be convinced that I loved you, not in the way that you would have wanted to be convinced, not without believing those lies you were telling yourself. And on the other hand, My very Love for you would not let you believe them, My Love for you could not let you rest in a lie. And yet at the same time, too, you were cooperating with My grace, and you were learning to love Me more and more as you yourself refused to believe in your own lies. So that now you know and understand My Love for you to the point that you too hate your lies.
 
But you are still weak, and so, by force of old habit, it is very easy for you to slip back into your old anxieties when I allow something to happen in order to convince you a little more of your corruption — as I waited, not only for Lazarus to die, I waited until he was stinking in the tomb. That was to signify to you that I not only show you your hopelessness in yourself, but I show you too, the depth of your depravity. But why? Only to open the tomb of your corruption, to call you forth from that tomb to Myself. I an the Resurrection and the Life!
 
And notice too, that as Lazarus was dead, he could not cry out to Me himself. He could only wait. But as he waited, Mary, his sister, wept, because she loved him — as My Mother, your Sister, and your Mother weeps for you now. Such is the state of your soul now. Now you know your death. Now you know that there is nothing that you can do of yourself to please Me. And therefore your prayer now is your waiting on My word, in the tomb of your corruption, waiting for your resurrection. Do you see? You cannot rise without Me now, and your knowledge of that truth glorifies the Father in Me and glorifies Me in the Father. But you cannot rise with Me until you have first died — even after you have died you must wait until I call you.
 
That is your prayer now, to wait in your death for the word of My Resurrection in you.    

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When you realize My Love for you, then in Me, you love those who despise and reject you, then your love becomes My Love for them, for you and in you. And only then is the frustration of your need to love and to be loved satisfied in My Heart.
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You cannot bear My sorrow with My joy,
You cannot suffer for Me unless you are united with Me.
"Rise after you have sat, ye who eat the bread of sorrow!"
Rise to suffer after you have learned My Love in contemplation!
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Note: The following excerpt from a book of  approved locutions to an anonymous French religious is especially meant for souls consecrated  to Our Lord,  in whatever station in life Our Lord has called them, and for all those who look to become so consecrated.

Speaking  of this book , the hermit priest Rev. John Brown wrote: "I cannot recommend this book strongly enough.  If you are a consecrated soul, a very great treasure has fallen into your hands."


(excerpt 3)
The Meaning of Christ's Appeal
"My
appeal  is intended to bring about a great stirring that will free the many souls still held bound to the earth –– to what is purely human –– by weights that press down on their egoistic me, and to draw them into the great currents of Redemption. For my need of you, O consecrated souls, is more urgent now than ever, if only you would understand and answer it.


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