This is why such a soul experiences excessive sadness and despair soon as signs of its own lack of integrity show up, with the consequence that it immediately feels unacceptable to God.  That’s why a sick soul is always hiding the truth from itself, the mechanism for which is endless self-justification. And why the correction of such a soul is always taken as rejection.
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On Helping Souls That Are Being Tried
Do not lose your serenity on account of those who are being tried.  Pray for them; offer the sufferings of My Passion and some acts of self-denial, some self-imposed sufferings for them.”
Jesus to Sister Mary of the Holy Trinity
 
When souls are being tried, what they need from you is deeper love of Me—so that, through you, I may give them the grace they need.  So you see, you need your serenity even more at such times.  Do not try to buy peace for souls by losing your own!  Offer up your act of self-denial at such times, so that the soul who is suffering may get the grace to accept in joy what she cannot change—through your free offering of love.  You will see more and more how you are all instruments in the communication of My Love, for one another as for yourselves.  The more you will understand that, the more you will love one another.
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On Feeling Unloved
Only the realization that I love you now, I, Jesus, who know all your misery, all your sins, the failure of your whole life, only the knowledge that I Who know how underserving you are of anyone‘s love, yet love you nevertheless with the Love of God Himself, can take away the pain and anxiety of feeling unloved by so many persons, and not undeservedly.
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 The Age of St. Bernard’s is not like Ours.
St. Bernard, commenting on the Canticle (Song of Songs)

"Or perhaps, drawn away and seduced by his own concupiscence, he is still being dangerously tempted. Such a soul as this does not need a Bridegroom but a Physician, and for this reason receives, not kisses or caresses, surely, but only remedies for wounds in oil and ointments."

Yes, Bernard, in your time this was true — for the time had not yet come to force men willy-nilly from the highways and byways to the wedding feast. Men were still strong and able to overcome concupiscence with a help of the Physician less than the Kiss of His Mouth, less than the embrace of His intimacy. But now we are as children, impatient as we are weak, and needing, therefore, to be fondled and kissed by the Mother and her spouse, by Mary and Jesus.  0 Bernard, those of your age, who could help yourselves, needed the Physician only to supply the ointments of which you speak. But we need the Kiss of this Bridegroom who condescends to the weakness of little ones, like this little one who is too weak to help himself and therefore cries out:
"Let him kiss me with the kiss of his mouth, for thy breasts are better than wine.  For my justification now is not that I am healed by the ointments of the Physician, but that I am in the arms of His Mother, that it is her purity that makes me worthy of His embrace, not my virtue."
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If Something Is Painful
It seems I always assume that if something is painful, it is evil and to be avoided. Then, when I am suffering, I begin to think, and I do not rest until I have discovered some truth which I hope will remove the pain. But I do not think I do this only because I want to avoid suffering: it is rather that I look upon suffering as a sign that I am wrong somehow, that God is displeased with me, and therefore something in me must be changed.
    

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Today I Want To Teach You Something About Your Faith  (Cont'd)
    
And do you not see that it is exactly that which makes you so vulnerable to temptation? Do you not see that in your rebelliousness and in your sin you have tried to hide from Me your whole life long, tried almost to deny My Existence? 
Of course when you think of it, you realize that it is impossible to hide from Me. But that does not prevent you from trying, and even from convincing yourself that I do not see you. Yes, for I am present to you in that way too, by seeing all that goes on within you. Everything that you do, every single thing that happens, not only in you but in the whole universe, falls under My Providence, and therefore all things are perfectly present to My sight. I see what happens infinitely more perfectly than eye could see — the very being of what happens proceeds from Me and depends on Me to be —  so that I see each thing in the very depth of its being.  I apprehend your every thought, your every image, your every impulse as it is hidden deep within you, so deep that it is often hidden from you yourself.
 
And do you think that if you realized that, you would allow yourself to think and to feel, to will and to do so many of the things you do?  And do you not see how much you allow yourself to be tempted violently because you have succeeded in convincing yourself that what you think, feel, desire and do is hidden from Me?  Only ask yourself this:  suppose you were being watched by some mere human being who was aware of what you were thinking and doing. How long would you continue?  And if it is a fact that I am aware of what you do, infinitely more perfectly, why would you persist in things you would be ashamed to have anyone else know, except that you have convinced yourself that no one knows them except yourself?
 
Therefore My counsel to you is that you meditate long and deep on this truth, that you cultivate the realization of My Presence within you all through the day, in little things, in little temptations. Then when you are tempted in great things you will be convinced of My Presence, you will know that I am with you. And because you were aware of My Presence in little things, trying always to please Me and not to offend Me, you will realize that I am with You in your great trials and temptations. (Very often they will not become great because your awareness of Me will give you the strength to overcome them when they are small.)  But you will overcome even great temptations because you will realize that I am within, loving you and giving you My Strength to overcome  them.  But when you convince yourself that you are alone in little things, you cannot believe in the Power of My Presence in great things. And it is only I, in you as you trust in Me, who can overcome your enemies.
 
And if I allow you to fall, it is only to teach you this lesson. You cannot hide from Me and overcome your enemies. That is what you have tried to do all your life. But when you hide from Me, you yourself are allied with your own enemies, a rebel like them. That is what you must change. You believe at last in My Love for you, but you still have the old habit of hiding and withdrawing from Me.  But now that you know My Mercy, you know that there is nothing for you to hide, that your very sins are your claim to My Love when you trust in Me. So now stay with Me all the time. and you will see how quick I am to protect you — because you believe not only in My Love but in My Presence. That is what lets Me do everything in you.


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